I See the Light

Last year about this time I started taking anti-depressants. I made a list of what it would be like when I was no longer depressed. Let’s see where I am in all of this:

How I will know I am no longer depressed:

  • I will have energy
  • I will sleep well at night
  • I will be a forward thinker again
  • My memory will improve
  • My attitude will be optomistic
  • I will feel content/satisfied/happy
  • I will feel good about myself
  • I will be able to look Jack* in the eye and not feel like he let me down
  • I will be able to plan for the future
  • The Life in Hell comic strip on my desk will be gone
  • My Dream Board will return
  • I will be able to look myself in the eye and say, “I like you.”
  • I will talk nice to myself
  • I won’t feel like such a drag and a whiner
  • I will feel good about myself
  • I will feel good about my relationships
  • I will want to be with my friends more and by myself less

*Jack Canfield and The Success Principles

I can say that with the exception of two things I no longer hold in value I am there.

I don’t blame Jack for what I was feeling, I take responsibility for putting so much stock into his words. So I guess I could look him in the eye and not feel like he let me down, but I might have a conversation with him about how his way is not 100%. When I wrote that a year ago I meant that I could come to terms with what happened and see where I went wrong. But now I see it wasn’t me so much but that the system failed. I have a different view of self-help now than I did then.

I didn’t replace my Dream Board nor do I want to. It was a visualization exercise recommended by Jack, post pictures of things you want and say your affirmations daily. I don’t put stock into that anymore.

The good news is that I now have energy, I like my job, I feel like I am making a contribution, I am optomistic again and I feel good about ME. It is a much better place to be.


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4 Responses to “I See the Light”

  1. Beth Says:
    January 23rd, 2007 at 7:19 am

    I’m so glad to hear how much better you’re feeling. Cause you deserve it AND because you totally rock so YAY! :)

  2. Theresa Says:
    January 23rd, 2007 at 9:47 pm

    Thanks Boo.

  3. danielle Says:
    January 31st, 2007 at 2:27 pm

    Hey there,

    So glad to hear that you are feeling better! Depression literally sucks the life out of a person and I am all for “better living through chemistry” to quote Joey Ramone. You are an amazing woman and I am proud to call you my friend.

  4. Anna Wilde Says:
    February 23rd, 2007 at 11:07 am

    Hey, Theresa. Good to hear you’re feeling better. Just another thought on what affects life here on planet earth, though I know you don’t believe in this stuff, BUT Saturn goes direct (in Leo) in April, so whatever you’ve been working on the past year should start to kick into gear and continue to give you a boost through summer’s end; that goes for your energy, as well.
    Saturn is a drag. Some call it the grim reaper of the zodiac, and when it travels through the Sun Sign Leo it’s a double drag. I’ve never met a Leo yet that likes to be limited or restricted. The upside to this bad boy is Saturn does have a long-term plan in mind that benefits its work wherever we have Leo in our lives; for me its my moon!
    Have a good day! And I, too, am proud to call you my friend!

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